losing you

Things are not getting any better,in fact they seem to be getting worse.me and my girl are having alot of problems and todays our anniversary and she is talking about leaving the county for good!! she says she doesnt know where she is going but she will call me when she gets there. she said she is leaving this hell hole. I mean things between us are bad, it hurts alot. its like if things between us keep getting worse then I might lose her and without her im nothing its bullshit but then again so is life. I feel like im losing everyone.
today I was so depressed and I feel like im not good enough 4 anyone. I feel like im not pretty enough even though she says im sexy and hot,but today I was on the-n and I saw a pic comment that she left for her ex's picture and she said omfg your so fuckin sexy thats when my depression started I know im not pretty enough for anyone I mean im not ugly but I felt like it today.I mean I think thats the first time she seen a pic of her ex I was so hurt I still am.I feel like a big part of me is dead.I swear my life sucks big time! I mean today was so boring and stressful.