troubles with love

-------It's Not Enough To Say That This is my love----------
I remember still, that look in your eyes
reminding me of my own, so clearly readable like the most beautiful of books. Sincerity was clearly in front of me. I thought of all people you would love me, you could need me, but you wern't their, not when I needed you. You criticized me, telling me words of love and only showing me hate.
I still feel the tips of your fingers resting on the curve of my face. A feeling that will never fade, someone so close yet so far.
I will always remember that smile, once so bright, now so dark.
How my heart would pound rapidly, now is a dull pain.
Falling asleep, I could see your chest rise and fall, so peaceful, who would of thought a perfect picture could be of someone so cruel, so hateful. I was wrong to believe in you, to trust you,The way you trusted in me.
I thought i could feel you again, not long ago see your face close to mine, in my wildest dreams and closest nightmares.
It's not enough to say i love you, its not enough to say i hate you, i'm stuck in between.
having my bed empty feels kinda like my heart
wanting nothing more then to tear my sheets apart
unable to roll over and see you vision there
not being able to run my fingers thru your flowing hair
sleeping at night knowing I wont wake up with you by my side
there hasnt been a day where i've woke up and havent cried...
You see my man's got a problem, he lives with the bottle that's the reason i cant take this, his attitude is one to make a person want to die, a heart made of ice, I hate wanting to die, im sick of those horrid thoughts.
Too my lost love Don, with love and with hate
enjoy your life, hope its better then mine, because mine can only get better, i can find better then you any day of the week.


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